Like You spilled Your blood, I spill my heart as an offering.
-Hillsong
I really got broken at this past retreat. Always when that happens, I get stubborn. Most of the time I get angry or irritated at God, and myself. This time I'm so sad.. I've realized that I relish this handful of relationships in my life that have become tainted with satan's work. I love these people, and I love their approval and being on good terms with them so much yet I can't keep on this way with them because satan has indirectly used each of them to hurt my relationship with God.
Are you willing to sacrifice human relationships for a stronger relationship with God? At one time I thought this wasn't possible, because doesn't God want you to build relationships and love people? But an older sister told me, loving someone doesn't mean becoming best friends with them, or hanging out with them often, as Christ-centered as it may be. Loving someone sometimes means confronting the fact that the person is causing you to idolize and sin, and it means sacrificing that relationship with him or her for the glory of God. Even if neither of you have done anything particularly wrong to each other, satan's messed with your feelings and your motives, and the consequences all wound your heart.
So the only way to let God heal your heart, is to let go...
